GROWING THROUGH PAIN

Earlier this week, my Bible reading plan had me in Psalms. I normally love the opportunity to read these letters of worship, allowing my heart to reflect on the nature of the God we worship. This particular day had me reading Psalm 13: 
How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?  How long will you hide your face from me?  2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?  How long will my enemy triumph over me?  3 Look on me and answer, Lord my God.  Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, 4 and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”   and my foes will rejoice when I fall.  5 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.  6 I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.
I don't know about you, but that doesn't sound like an extremely cheerful song of encouragement. I had to stop what I was doing and take a few minutes to process what I had just read. I know that there are times in all of our lives where we have this same sense of emotion and interaction with our creator. I know that I was personally able to interject myself into each one of these questions that the psalmist writes. The troubles and needs expressed here cover such a wide range of practical pain and heartache such as abandonment, depression, sorrow, fear, defeat, and many others. Those are all very serious and real issues that we deal with on such a regular basis.  

The ideal way to interact with this passage would be to recognize where these situations play into our own lives, and then continue with trusting in the Lord and rejoicing in his salvation.  To be completely honest, I don't always do the best job at this. I know that I can have the tendency to focus on the first four verses of this chapter and neglect the last two. I find ways in my mind of feeling sorry for myself, needing others to recognize the pain I am in, and unfortunately at times let these define my heart and attitude. When a person feels pain, it is very difficult to focus on anything except for that pain for quite some time. I know that the enemy will do his best to keep our hearts focused on the pain and difficulties, hindering the growing work that God wants to do in our hearts. 

Growing up a pastor's kid (PK) I have heard every message on surrendering difficult situations, physical or emotional, to God and allowing him to work on my heart through those times. Sometimes we convince ourselves that we have handed situations over to God; but the truth of the matter is that more often than not, we are kidding ourselves. We know it’s the right answer, and so we assume that we automatically surrender those things. But there are times when I need to take a step back and really evaluate the condition of my heart, especially in difficult times. Many times, I can honestly say that I am doing a good job at the moment, but many other times, I am lying to myself and others when I say that I am allowing God to do his good work in my life through the surrender of my challenges.  

When I was 13 years old, I had to memorize the book of James (the ultimate PK punishment).  Many verses have stuck with me through the years, especially James 1:2-4 (The Message): 
2 Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. 3 You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. 4 So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.   

I want to live a life determined not to flee from difficult and challenging situations, but more importantly, to develop a deeper relationship that allows God to do a powerful work in my life through those things. This only happens when I consciously bring these challenges to God and allow him to do the work needed to overcome and grow from the difficulties life brings.  It should be our desire to be mature children of God, children who allow a good God to work through the trials and challenges that we are presented with every day.  

Thanks for reading, 

Ryan 
rpickrel@b4church.org



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